The Moment of Growth

Going beyond anticipation and expectation

Anticipating a delightful climax
I am often disappointed
When things move in an opposite direction
I am left hanging

I cannot see how perfectly
things turn out
stuck in the past of expectations
I cannot see the new path opened up

The joy awaiting me
is delayed by my perceptions
my perspectives and expectations
by what the little me wants

The real me smiles with joy
as it waits for me to catch up
it loves me as the child it is leading
to my next moment of awakening

Always a step behind
I am always catching up
I find joy in hindsight
instead of in the moment

I strive to catch up
to live in the moment
to be present
to experience life head-on

The sweet music of the past
brings up nostalgic emotions
it puts a smile on my face
it reminds me…