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Stationary Bike
Fighting or transcending?
Just when she thought it was over and she was in the clear the situation arose yet again. How did she let it happen? She had been careful and vigilant and resolute. When and how did she let her guard down?
Unable to pinpoint the moment when she had reopened the door to the problem, she put it behind her and did what she did every time the situation came up. She affirmed her intent to live without the problem. She visualized the problem gone and turned her focus to what it was that she truly wanted. She tried not to judge and punish herself, acknowledging that occasional setbacks were not the end of the world. Vowing to overcome, she would only become stronger.
Suddenly, she had an insight. Did she subconsciously allow the problem to reappear as a way to continuously force herself to get stronger? Was it like exercise; a way to force herself to go to the gym?
Was it really strength that she was trying to build? Strength and her problem seemed to be linked somehow. Perhaps strength was not the answer. Instead of fighting the problem with strength maybe what she really needed to do was transcend the problem entirely, allowing it to dissipate as it moved through her without any resistance on her part. Could she become impervious?
