What are you thinking?
Oh gosh, where do I start? I’ve got a thousand thoughts running through my noggin.
What are you feeling?
Huh? Feeling? Uh… I don’t know. I’ll have to think about that.
No, feelings; not thoughts. Let your thoughts evaporate. Go into your feelings. Feelings are feelings. They get corrupted when you think about them. Don’t think; just feel. Let the feelings come up.
What the hell are you? Some kind of noggin doctor?
No, I’m trying to get you out of your freaking noggin. Forget all thoughts. Stop thinking. Just feel. What comes up?
Okay. (He closed his eyes and tried to empty his noggin and just feel.)
There was a very long pause.
Okay, I feel like my life is fucked up. I feel like everything I do is blocked. I feel strangled. I feel like my hands are tied. I feel like the more I try, the more I fail. I feel like everyone hates me. I feel like I am locked out of life. I feel like I’m banging my head against a wall. I feel like I’m some kind of alien or something. I don’t fit into the rest of humanity. I feel almost like I don’t exist or something.
I feel like I don’t matter.
Are you looking outside of yourself for validation? Are you looking in the mirror or are you looking at the mirror of your immediate environment? What mirror are you looking in?
What the fuck are you talking about?
You can look to society to define you. Or you can look in the mirror. Or you can stop looking and instead FEEL.
You can stop defining things. You can stop thinking. You can stop searching for a place to fit into. You can stop re-configuring what you see in the mirror. You can stop trying to be anything that is not truly you. You can stop creating a mask that you present to the world. You can stop lying. You can go within you and BE THAT.
You can stop resisting life. Life is not something to fit into. It is already within you and it is without you. Life is. It is not something to…