My Quest to Understand Female Energy

It’s been a long, unfinished journey

My life has been a long journey towards an understanding of energy; female energy in particular. It has been a journey made difficult by the fact that I am male. In Western Society males are conditioned to ignore and suppress any female energy within them. They are taught that female energy resides with females and male energy resides with males and that, as males, we must focus exclusively on developing the socially mandated attributes of male energy within us. I am not sure why but I rebelled against this.

As a kid I was a voracious reader. Our father took us to the library every Sunday and I would come home with a tall stack of books that I would read and return the following Sunday in exchange for another tall stack of books. To me, way back then, books were the most wonderful thing in life.

One of the books from that time that profoundly shook me to my core was a book about the life of St. Bernadette of Lourdes. Bernadette immediately became my number one hero. Of course, the story of St. Bernadette is all about the unconditional love of pure female energy. I did not understand it at the time but I was instantly drawn to understand this energy.

I devoured books about far-off lands like Africa, India and South America. I devoured books on…