White Feather
2 min readMar 26, 2020

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Lindsay, I have to admit that it has been a lot harder than I thought it would be but I am determined to do it every day and so far I have. The first day was the most difficult. I felt like a newborn colt walking on its legs for the first time. I had no idea how inhibited my body had become.

At first I tried to incorporate the dancing after my morning spiritual practices but yesterday I decided to do it in the evening before my evening spiritual practices. This is working much better and I think it actually helps me prepare for those evening spiritual practices.

The dancing has also got me to explore the deep recesses of my memory as I tried to remember exactly when and why I stopped dancing in the first place. I finally realized that I stopped dancing a few months after I got married. That was 35 years ago. Sure, since then I danced a bit with the dog and with our little girl but my wife and I never danced again. I can’t remember a single time we danced after that first year of marriage. I was shocked to realize that. It is especially weird in that she was an actress, dancer, choreographer.

I could have seen that as a harbinger of things to come but at the time I wasn’t even aware of the fact that we stopped dancing. I was blind as a bat to it. Now it is suddenly very clear.

I even remember the last time we danced. We were at home drinking wine and talking when I put in a Men At Work cassette into my little player. We spontaneously danced the night away. But I don’t fully understand why it stopped.

But it has started up again now and I am realizing that I don’t need a woman or a dog or a little child to dance with. When I was young if I didn’t have a dance partner I just danced by myself. I did that a lot. So now I’m learning to do that all over again. I feel like a little baby just learning how to walk but the more I do it, the looser I’ll get. It involves doing it every day and that is exactly what I intend to do. I fully intend to make it a daily spiritual practice.

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White Feather
White Feather

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