A Slippery Doorknob
Ann Litts , I wrote this after reading one of your fantastic articles. You may have noticed that I only gave you 48 claps instead of 50. It was a 50 clap article until you mentioned Star Wars, at which point my clapping stopped slightly prematurely at 48. That does not denigrate your article in any way, it merely throws light on my disdain of Star Wars. That’s my problem.
I assure you that I am not “way ahead of the rest of us.” I am actually way behind the rest of us. I am way the hell more fucked up than anyone can imagine. I live on the brink of insanity. I live where no one dares venture. I live in a mirror that distorts everything. I live in a space where no other human dares to enter. I live in ‘no man’s land.’
Of all of today’s religions, including Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, Capitalism, Star Wars, Science, Politics, Zoroastrianism, Taoism, Hollywoodism, and duality, I vigorously avoid them all. They are all barriers we have collectively created to that which is not a religion. Every religion is a creation of duality and, as such, is a barrier to the one-ness from which we were created and to which we must return to in order to realize our divine purpose and our overall divinity.
Every religion is a barrier to our divinity that says that we cannot connect with our divinity except through that religion. Every religion is a middleman. It is a middleman that attempts to assert itself between us and our divine Source.
My relationship with God is strictly personal. There is no middleman. There is no duality-based religion standing in the way of directly communicating with and communing with the Creator of All That Is. I am part of that “Creator of All That Is” because I was created by it. All of our mind games are just barriers to that realization. Those mind games are incredibly powerful and they are the barriers we must breach in order to reconnect with our Source, our Creator.
For many decades I have failed to breach those barriers. I am a long-time failure. I have been “The Fool” who has failed to recognize that being “ahead of others” is not nearly as desirable a position as being “behind all others.”
It is only separate from mass consciousness that I can slip out the side door and touch without struggle that which everyone attempts to attain through struggle. Still stuck in human struggle, I reach for that door and the doorknob seems covered in oil and seems impossible to turn.
With my hand covered in oil, I am only different from others in that I keep trying to open that side door while most others turn to religions to open the door for them, not realizing that religions are what keep the door closed.
Stuck in the oily quagmire of duality, I keep turning the doorknob to no avail, failing to realize that I need to put my shoulder and all my force into busting the goddam door down. Until I do that I am a pathetic nobody who talks out of his ass words that have not yet been filled with true meaning. I’m just trying to turn a doorknob that, because of the slippery oil, I have yet to open. Once I finally open it and pass through it I will never be heard from again.
